Kamis, 24 November 2011

Expect, suprise comes after. Expect much, regret comes after =|

You believe from what you try -Purpose

Really have no idea about things lately :(( been so deeply buried under. Feeling a total blue. Blacked out. So I log in to this blog, and, tah-daaa this post!

Everything goooooneeeee SO WORSE!

By the quotation above I try to, try to believe by what I've been tried through. Much thing, I guess. I paid everything as good as I could and it's just -owh- getting so damnly bad :((

I really want to explain what's the problem about, but, sudden, realized it's way too much hurting. So, bye.

Sabtu, 05 November 2011

Imma big, no matter what.

Life is too deep for words, so
don’t try to describe it, just live it. -C.S. Lewis

Between 'this' and 'that' okay - that's really not what I mean - awkward situation. Okay, no, just read it like a bunch of problems, yeah, read it just like that. I tried to convince myself these last days, well - but I ain't gonna tell you about my problems :b because - I read Ajahn Brahm's book, he said just like "if you want to make an ill person feel worse, ask him what he feels" and I felt that was a right one, and I'm not gonna tell you mine.

Then, what's the point? Yup, I guess I don't know, oh, wait - I'm seeking.

So, if you're wondering why I posted this (actually im just wasting my time hohoho - i'm downloading a song right now)

Well, yeah, back again, I'm just trying to convince myself here. Made up my feels, that've been broken on sides. K. Yeah. I'm (trying) to be big (no-no-no-not fatter-___-) I stay strong, I'm wishing this probation will ended right. Then, finally I would find up the right exhilaration. Til now, I just let everything flows. I'm not stressed - messed up. But I - scarred up. Saya sudah terluka.

Well, post ini semakin aneh. At first I remind myself not to feel and now I'm doing at the contrary.

And, oh, last. Happy November! It's been raining so hard in my country - and that - was making me worse, yeah, I thought. I had made my completed simple #novemberwish
And I wished that could be done.

Bye guys.